29 Nov 06

Yesterday was the interview. It was a mixed feeling kinda thing.On bus 197, I was so worried that I'd be late cos the bus was so slow. But in the end, i was half hour early. Haha. It was a rather long wait, and I was hungry. After the interview, i was tired. I sort of flopped the whole thing, but whats new. Things started to go wrong wrong wrong when that interviewer asked me abt how S'pore shd respond to India and China's growth. I felt like telling her: 'How I know', but I didn't, of cos, i just crapped thru and scraped thru.


After that I took train to Bedok and went Lela's house. Pls, the journey was only half hour. To think i almost spent one hour plus by bus to that stupid ulu place at Jln Bkt Merah. Never mind. Baking cookies was fun. That was my 1st time, and i felt like a dummy. I didn't know that the dough would expand, and I didn't put enough chips. Stupid right? But never mind. That was my first time, next time I know. Haha. Took photos, my fave of cos.


Thanks Lela, for letting me bake such wonderful cookies.

03/05 Chalet

Lam, Jac and ZJ: For ur reading pleasure.


Today...went to Zj's class chalet. It was fun thou the weather was not very nice and we didn't really do much. Met zj supposedly at 1215, who knows both of us were late. For once, she was even later than me. Haha. Proud of myself. Went to White Sands NTUC to buy the BBQ stuff. What did we buy? Hmm...party needs, zj's LETTUCE, baby potatoes, tomatoes, snacks...thats all, i think. Took the free shuttle bus at 1345 and kena scolding from the bus driver for missing the stop. Toopid bus driver, how dare he scold us-passengers! We've got all the time on earth, can't we just sit in the bus forever? Haha.


Super heavy rain when we alighted. Gladys, Fatima & Ah Tai went in 1st, me and Zj waited for the brollies. Hanzhi went to fetch us aft tt. Thou we had brollies, its only slightly better than without them, cos we were quite drenched too. Haha. But 1 lesson learnt: Don't ever wear slippery slippers to chalets when u know its gonna rain. Luckily nobody slipped today.


In the chalet what did we do? Took photos (my fave!), watched tv (as if my house don't have like tt), pillow fight with zj, attempted to play blackjack (the keyword is ATTEMPTED) and lastly BBQ. It was rather fun looking at how pple start the fire and place the charcoals and fan the ashes and smoke til the wire mesh broke. And not forgetting having fun holding the umbrella for Wen Jun & unfortunately, Jerome (supposedly the charcoals) Haha. 4L came in the evening, with her never-closed-umbrella which she held on to even when it has stopped raining. I left at late 7 plus, after 1 crabstick, 1 baby potato, 1/2 hot dog (courtesy of 03/05), 1 mid-wing and some Bee Hoon (courtesy of 4L), under the escort of 4 guardian angels with empty stomachs (zj, fatima, gladys and Ah Tai). How honoured! Liked the way 4L talked. Not cos her words were INSPIRING, but cos she was so COMICAL. Haha.

From the smiles, its easy to tell that I've enjoyed myself.


Heres some touching words. Thanks lam, jac and zj for ur invitations and I wouldn't had so much fun w/o ur presences. Thanks lam, jac for the birthday present, love the colours! Thanks zj for escorting me and the return card enclosed with the super big sweet. Please convey my thanks to ur class 03/05 for all the fun I've had, esp my other 3 guardian angels. Oh, should I also thank ur CG's CT's maid for the food too? Haha. Thanks.

I still think Wai Yong really looked like Li Nan Xing, and tt Linyuan and Hanzhi really are compatible, but not Jun Long and Wan Qing and that Jerome really is... and Wen Jun is really GREAT, and Keow Koon is really pretty and the class pple are simply...wonderful. :)

With Seige

The day...had McBreakfast @ TMall with Seige this morn, so fun. I was a bit late cos I was busy watching Doraemon. Haha. Got stood up by Prisc...toopid Prisc! Haha. Went to look at Xmas trees (so nice), toys 'R' us, Yamaha...then to Seige's house, cos I had no key to go home and I had to be at somewhere else in the aftn supposedly. Spent some time there. Stole 32 Archie digests from her, sang almost all choir songs together (& realised tt she's got such wonderful memory-not only did she rmb the tunes, she rmb the lyrics too-crazy!), gossiped about many people-including the PHANTOM, took and looked at photos, listened to songs & podcasts, played Internet...this is what I call spending quality time. Haha. To think we've almost lost contact for 2 years,and we're still so close. I feel so 'xing fu'. To Seige, thanks for everything. U're really a great friend. I'll not forget the interests for the digests. :)

End of A-levels

Today is the day...the end of A levels. Nothing to say abt the S Papers except that they were DIfficult! Never mind, at most get ungraded only lor. Not impt de.Haha. How I celebrated? Went to LJS @ TMall...saw the escalators with the CAUTION Sticker...aiyoh. We had a very long lunch...chatted a lot. So happy.


Met Seige at the place we are meeting tmr. So qiao. Haha. Can't wait to have breakfast with her tmr. Are u reading this, Seige? I'm very very eager to really meet up with u!


Then I went down to NMS. A bit bored. No liaison officer also nvm lah. Haha. Made 2 new friends-Maryann (ACJc) and Geok Han (HCI). Got a free Teh Tarik as well. Seems like I'll have a busy countdown this year.


Anyway, no more notes!I'mnot going to read or touch anything got to do with Maths/Chem/Phy/Bio/GP. Nobody is allowed to ask me anything got to do with those stuff. Haha. Its time to relaxliao and start packing and preparing for my long vacation.


Zj, u want to work ah...can lah,but no NTUC, no Shop N Save, no McDonalds. I don't want to wash toilets. Haha. I can source for good jobs for u if u dont mind. But no hurry lah, lets wait till Dec aft my trip lah hor, can? Haha.

Bio

Another paper down... 3 more papers to go. Somehow I feel very disappointed with my performance in this A levels. I think I would do very badly for all the subjects. Getting an A seems almost impossible for any subject. Sigh. I still think doing ok for prelims is a no-no.


I don't think the problem lies with the papers, I think the problem lies in ME. To think I cant even spell gibberellin. Horrible. To speak the truth, I haven't really been performing up to standards. Perhaps I had the same feelings during Prelims, which I can't rmb, but i do hope I'm just being too paranoid and pessimistic and that things aren't as bad as I think. The only chance to save my bio paper is the MCQ, which i doubt can save me much.


I'm feeling quite funny now. On one hand, I hope people will console me, telling me that things aren't that bad, on the other hand, I rather people around me just not say anything and just let me face up to reality. I also don't know. But i do know that hearing how others keep getting the right ans does not sound consoling at all. I'm not implying that others are not supposed to get the right ans, but it only shows how lousy I've been.


1 more Bio MCQ, 2 more S Papers, 4 more nights, 5 more days...

hello!

Have been posting a lot lately. All because of some stupid messages that made me angry.


But anyway, 1 more week to end of my exams. Can't wait to have lunch with Zj on the last day, can't wait to go out with Seige, can't wait to contact NHB and start work as a liason officer, can't wait to make preparations for my EOY NZ trip...and the list goes on. I'm not going to bother abt some outings that some poeple, who knew that I can't go, organised, cos I can't go. Thats simple.


Of course I quite envy those who didn't take Bio, cos their papers ended just yest, and think abt it, they're already enjoying their hols right now, when I still have 4 more papers to go. But I really don't mind lah, afterall I chose the subjects and papers I want to take. Its good for me. 6 days really aren't a lot. Can survive de. And this, is self-encouragement. And speaking of that, I haven't started studying for Mon's Bio option yet. Maybe later lah, slack first more impt. Haha.

Long time no see

I realised I have't been blogging since abt 1 week ago. Thou nobody may be reading, but I might as well post something.


I don't wish to sound depressed, but I really think I'm a goner. Whats the point of doing well during prelims and not doing wellin the actual A levels? And thats the precise predicament I'm in right now. I'm so very disappointed with the many stupid mistakes in my maths paper. I think I'm placed at a very risky spot. I really will knock my head against anything I can find if my carelessness had caused my grade to drop from A to B. Physics was horrible also. Had I not made so many mistakes in the MCQs which cost 2m each, I think i wouldn't have died so horribly. But over liao, too bad.


I just received a phone call from a crazy fella. The first thing he said to me was "What are you doing now?" I was totally shocked and filled with qn marks. I asked him who he was, he told me to guess. I asked him if he had made a wrong call, he said no and told me not to be like that. Like what?!! Am I supposed to entertain someone whom I don't know? To hell with him, man. Scare people like that past midnight. Luckily I'm still awake, if not I would have been...don't know, maybe shocked to death? Haha, anyway, I scolded him and hung up on him. Too bad, just his luck to make a prank call like that and got answered by me. Crazy fella!

Short break

Finally can rest for 2 afternoons liao.The 2 day "marathon" was horrible. So many things to study, so little time to study.Think I will shatter some day, if I'm not given theis 2 afternoon' rests. Ok, now I dont even know what I'm typing.


Miss Wong gave us all cookies this morning. She baked them herself. Wow! Each pack consists of 3 pieces of cookies...supposed to form a "100" so that we can score 100 for our chem paper. Haha, you think its possible? I already minus off don't-know-how many marks liao. Heh...


For yesterday's bio, it was so-so. Not all that I studied came out, but all that I didn't study did appear. Stupid paper. But somehow I think its much better than Prelims. Is it? Actually i also don't know. Give me a few more days to think about it and I might say otherwise.


Yesterday's maths was ok. I ALMOST freaked out when I saw the 1st G.P. qns. Then the 3D trigo qns was such a discrete and difficult one. People like ZJ, KS all got 20.6 degrees for the angle. Me? I got 40.6 degrees. I wrong lah, obviously. Don't ask me where the extra 20 degrees come from, I don't know. I never get 3D trigo qns right de. NEVER! Ok lah, overall minus 12 marks liao. Still got 88 marks. Haha, what a nice number. Yah, as if I won't have other mistakes like that. Haha.

No more GP...

No more GP..., yah at least for the time being. So difficult leh...I usually don't do mass media qns, but there's almost no time for me this time round. I was quite frank in my survey form. I really didn't know much about Newspapers and Magazines, but thats as much as I know about charity, entrepreneurship, politics, myths and legends. But I didn't even knowif its "The Straits Times" or "The Straits Time"...I chose the former. Was I right? Served me right for not reading the papers. Haha. And I almost couldn't finish cos I crazily rewrote my essay twice. Crazy. And of course I stiked out the technology qns, only to feel a little betrayed after the paper and hearing some comments...Thats for Paper 1. Paper 2...horrible! I felt like sleeping even before I've finished reading my 2-page long passage. What freedom of speech, right of life...I felt so deprived!- of don't know what...time and knowledge maybe haha...


Anyway, its over liao, no point thinking about it anymore le hor...but its so unlike of me to think this way, so I guess this GP exam can still keep my mind occupied for at least a few days more. Hope that Mrs Ho doesn't come after me because of the lousy survey form reply...I was just being frank!


Oh by the way, I think our Miss Indian invigilator was great. Haha. And such a coincidence that the blur Mr Ang Moh that me, ZJ, Lam and Jac saw this morning was one of our invigilators too.

Start of the A-levels

Tmr...the day...of A-levels GP Papers. Stressed ah! Haha, GP is neither my favourite subject nor my best subject...I don't know what to do with it either. Get it over and done with asap better. Haha. Good luck to me!


Oh, and I'm so touched that my good friend, Seige actually dropped by (don't know if I'm still her good friend or not, haha). I was really just thinking about her yest and this afternoon and, poof, her name appeared on my tagboard. Hey friend, shall we go out after mine and your exams?

Irresponsibilty

Another hazy weekend...actually I'm quite used to it already. Tmr is the 2nd official day of school. I really think I will miss all my friends...afterall 2 years is still a lot. We started off not knowing each other and ended up enjoying many happy moments together. Even short bus journeys to the Bedok Interchange can be very enjoyable too. Although I can't say that I've got a very good class, but at least the gals in my class are really wonderful.


Till now I still feel very guilty. I helped KS checked his physics prelim paper and yet I missed out a point which could have scored him 1 mark and will make a grade difference. I did check, but I think I just missed that part out. Luckily he found out and claimed the mark. Although he didn't blame me, but i feel that its really my fault. I feel so irresponsible and guilty and sad...even till now. I doubt he'll ever trust me again...cos I think that's how I'll feel if i were in his shoes.


And of course, I made another dumb mistake during the week by making 5 people (including myself) do a Biochem worksheet which wasn't due till the next lecture. I didn't do it on purpose...it really didn't occur to me that we'll be doing the other physical chem worksheet for that very lecture. I think some people were not happy but they didnt scold me. I rather they scold me, at least I know how they feel and by being scolded, I'd feel much better...


I've been trying very hard, but sometimes i get the feeling that I'm still not responsible enough. But I've really tried...and I'm really very tired...I think I'm just a very lousy chem rep and I'm sure thats how some of the guys in my class feel...

Brand new Sunday

Ah...finally a brand new and fresher day. Yesterday was so trrible. I feel as if I was living in some hazy hazy world, without fresh air yesterday. Looking out of the window, I see like 60% haze and 40% scenary. It was really very bad. For the first time after how-many-donkey-years, the PSI hit more than 100. The worst was last night, with PSI of 150. 150!!! Can you believe it or not? We are in Singapore leh, not Indonesia...Then the night before was also terribly terrible. I smelled smoke, but my parents smelled none. My sister was fed up with my constant complaints about me being suffocated. But it was really bad mah...somemore people were carrying lanterns, playing sparkles and burning anything they can find in the park nearby...how good do you think the air quality can be?


Today was much much better. Right now the PSI is only about 37. Great huh? Anyway, we went Pan Pacific Hotel this afternoon for the MINDEF Scholarship Talk. Ok lah, the scholarship is definitely fantastic (they have only awarded 38 scholarships over the past 10 yrs) but if you are talking about the 3-mth BMT and OCS training, I really don't mind giving it a miss. Then the atmosphere is always the best when it comes to Q&A. As usual, not many people asked. It was supposed to end by 5pm, yet by 5pm I was already at home. Haha. The food was nice though...But today was definitely not my happiest day anyway.


& Talk about coincidence, ZJ and I were on the same train on our way to City Hall. Haha, where got so qiao one...

Maths Lecture +++

Today's maths lecture was so interesting...putting the real purpose of the lecture aside, its really fun to hear about things like hamming code and how the last letter of our NRIC is determined. I always thought its a random event. Haha. But whö's taking maths in University? Crazy ah...


And i find things between me and her turning about funny, but I don't know how to describe. What's going on? Actually I roughly know the reason why, and if thats really the case, I definitely don't quite like the reason. I have never treated her this way before...sigh. But there's no way I'm giving in to her just because of her comments...

Of results and CCA draft

Today got back almost all the results, except bio. Anyway, I already knew my MCQ score, terrible lor. Other results still ok lor. Hope that the A grade cut-off for Chem is below my score, if not I would go bang my head against the wall. So near yet so far is the kind of feeling that I detest the most. My bio sure isn't going to make it. If I can get a pass and above, is very good already.


Checking of CCA Draft was horrendous, so messy. Didn't know that the school computer system is actually so screwed up, mistakes here-there-everywhere. Lousy. Many people's summaries were of 2 pages, mine only 1 page, so pathetic, like I very contribution-less like that. Compared to my Sec 4 CCA record which filled almost the whole page, when others' were only half the page...sigh.


People have already started studying for A-levels while I'm still in the exam-just-over kinda mood. Terrible. Still can afford to waste time talking during the 1h 20 min buffer time somemore...hosei ah. Haha.

End of Prelims

Yeah, finally finish my prelims liao. Its so funny...at 1 moment I'm receiving my exam scripts, the next moment, I'm sitting in the exam hall, doing yet another paper. Haha. S Papers were tough, needless to say, to think the physics qns that I attempted was actually gone thru by Mr Chan during one of the sessions, yet I still got it totally wrong. Haha, who ask me nvr study...


Got back my maths paper liao, all thanks to my paper 1 pulled me up or you can also say all thanks to my paper 2 pulled me down... some people around me all get 90+++, make me seem so lousy like that. Sigh, but never mind lah. Bio so far is just just just passed only. Still got 89 marks worth of scripts with the teachers...whether my wish come true all not all lies in my DESTINY. Haha, I have no CHOICE!


Oh and speaking of that, I still have my essay and AQ on DESTINY and CHOICE awaiting me. Sigh, I want to rest also cannot. Tired leh...

End of Part 1

I call this the end of part 1, cos thats the end of the core papers. 2 more S Papers to go. Actually, I think the stress level has reduced by quite a lot by now. Cos I know I won't make it for S Papers, so anything above an "U" grade is considered very remarkable already. But even if thats the case, I don't see why the school is so unfair to have lessons in the morning. Why, don't need to study at all is it? I want my definition marks ok!


Actually I did regret...not abt taking S Papers, its abt not taking Maths S Paper. Cos I think my Physics is really getting from bad to worse. But its too late already. And I too regret taking the Triple Sci combi instead of Double Maths. Bio is really hard leh, and I'm so so sick of bio that I really don't know how I'm going to survive the actual paper. It really seems as if no matter how hard I've tried or how much effort I've put in, there's still no improvement. Once again, be glad that my results don't deteriorate...


And Mrs Ho was the very very 1st teacher to 'feed' us with GP compre. So fast eh? According to her command, I'm only supposed to touch it after S papers, but maybe if I'm in a good mood tonight, I will try to complete so that its ready for discussion on Tues, but depends on my mood. Haha....

Another break...

Yeah, 2 more MCQ papers and 2 more S papers to go...I'm glad that the prelims are finally coming to an end, very very soon, but it will only be abt 1 month before the actual A levels. My goodness, its fast eh? I'm not going to do well for this prelims, I know, don't tell me, and don't doubt me too.


Anyway, luckily there's no paper tmr, so I can stay at home and SLACK. Ok lah, rest would probably be a more apt word. Once again, tonite's gonna be the absolute refractory period again, to prevent exhaustion and fatigue. Haha. No depolarisation so no influx of any knowledge at all. All the knowledge-sensitive channels are closed. Too bad! Haha. I'm crazy.

Disappointment

Its disappointing...the prelim of course and something else related to someone else. Talk abt the prelim 1st. I know its meant to be hard. But I don't see the need for killer papers right? I'm referring to Physics P2 and Biology. To the smart people out there, I really don't mind if they beg to differ, but thats how I feel.


Regarding the next something, theres nothing much to talk abt. Maybe I'm just petty or too sensitive, but i trust my sense and intuition. Sigh, make me feel sad. Sickening person.


Anyway, just hope that the upcoming papers will be better. I'm left with Physics P3, Chemistry P1 & 2, Biology P1 and 2 S Papers. They will be difficult and thats needless to say. To avoid further disappointment, I shan't think of anything else and I shall go to sleep. I need that sleep!!!

1 week less...1week more

Yah yah, 1 week of break gone and 1 week more of hols before prelims...PRELIMS!!! My goodness, its such an impt exam and somehow i don't feel the sense of anxiety and urgency and whatever-u-call-it at this moment, despite having the whole of physics and bio untouched! Should I panic or laugh or what?I don't know. I guess I'll just blog.

Last day

Today - the last day of the term. The next time i see my friends...oh gosh! Its gonna be Prelims, which is like 2 weeks away. Seriously and strictly speaking, I haven't started studying at all, and here i am, still blogging away. Fine.


We didn't celebrate much actually. just some well-wishes and a mug for each teacher. And a cake for Ah Chong. Really reminds me of how 4e1 didn't show our appreciation during 2004 Teachers' Day cos we were busy with our prelim preparation. I didn't know the teachers actually expected students to give them something. As in, of course they know that students would give them something, but i didn't know they would actually say it out so openly. Yah.


'Bought 2 6R class photos. Really regretted not buying last year, so i don't have a complete set now. But anyway, its ok since i don't like CG last year anyway. But I don't really approve of the way the photog society handle our photos. First there was a minimum orde of $120, then there's the 150% 6R and 8R order. Now, they say they can't develop 4R photos, cos there's someting wrong with the machine. Yah, how convenient.


Back to the last day talk, yah, today the last day, quite slack too. There were only 4 guys who turned up officially. I guess the rest of the people pre-empted that nothing much would be done today. Seems like they are right. Great foresight huh! Anyway, I don't intend to return within the next 2 weeks, so yah. So long!